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Faces are interesting things. They can reveal your innermost secrets, or they can be masks made of steel. Either way, they can say a lot. 

Normally, I can control what I want my face to look like. I can make myself a mask of happiness when inside I'm crying out for someone to catch me while I'm falling. It can be quite a deceiving thing. Often, it's easy to 'put a face on' with people you don't know so well. For me, it's very difficult to do while I'm with my foster family. They knew when I'm feeling really low, whether I put on a face or not. If someone knows you well, they know what to look out for and pay no attention whatsoever to the smile on your face or the lies of "I'm okay". 

My downfall is my face sometimes; particularly my eyes. I am an absolutely terrible liar. I'm brilliant at deceiving people, but that's slightly different to lying. When I'm asked a direct question, I have to answer honestly. If I'm lying then my brain instantly goes "NO, KERI. I'M NOT LETTING YOU MAKE EYE CONTACT". Obviously, people who know me use this to their advantage and also, again, know the signs.

It's tiring keeping a mask on your face, as a lot of you probably know. It can be absolutely exhausting. But sometimes, if you're with people who care about you, it can be good to let your face tell them how you're feeling instead of trying to keep it a secret from them. You can let it pull an expression that just SHOWS how you're feeling rather than you having to put it into words.

Let people in from time to time. Don't keep it all to yourself. Don't spend all your energy putting on a mask when inside you really need someone to help you.

24/6/2012 08:53:53 am

I love the way you ended this post, such brilliance in three simple sentences. Thank you for sharing it!

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