Afternoon! I realise it has been a while but I'm back. The picture has nothing to do with my post but I liked it so I thought I'd share it..
I totally shut down for several days; wouldn't talk to anyone, stayed in my room, did nothing. That kinda thing.
Now I'm ill. The good old V&D bug. One minute I was fine, the next I have searing abdominal pain and feel dreadful. The problem is it's now been nearly 24 hours since I ate anything because I still feel nauseous and there's a high risk I'll throw it up (involuntarily) afterwards which I don't want to happen. I don't feel as nauseous as I did yesterday but not eating anything has triggered my disordered eating again.
I'm sat here thinking, y'anno what? I haven't eaten and it's making me feel better, so why should I have anything for the rest of the day? When you're ill, you don't normally feel like eating or doing anything. The problem is, I find it triggers me and I end up starving myself, even after I feel better.
Hopefully I'll be feeling better and this bug will have disappeared by tomorrow morning. I've got to admit, I don't feel worse than yesterday but I still have the weakness and tiredness. I think it was just some 24 hour thing. Y'anno, the whole OMGOMG SO MUCH PAIN IT'LL NEVER END, and then it's gone just like that. It's quite weird to be honest and very annoying.
It's natural to be ill at some stage anyway although I think it's just anxiety that's coming out as physical symptoms. It can't be food poisoning as my diet consists of the same foods over and over again and I'm a vegetarian so I don't eat meat or fish... I also don't have some kind of chronic long-term disease so yeah. Although my hair's falling out again and my motor tics are as bad as ever. Good old anxiety, eh?
Hope you guys are okay, and I'm sorry it's been a while! I'm considering posting some of my poems I've written on here. Although I haven't actually decided yet ;)
Take care <3
I totally shut down for several days; wouldn't talk to anyone, stayed in my room, did nothing. That kinda thing.
Now I'm ill. The good old V&D bug. One minute I was fine, the next I have searing abdominal pain and feel dreadful. The problem is it's now been nearly 24 hours since I ate anything because I still feel nauseous and there's a high risk I'll throw it up (involuntarily) afterwards which I don't want to happen. I don't feel as nauseous as I did yesterday but not eating anything has triggered my disordered eating again.
I'm sat here thinking, y'anno what? I haven't eaten and it's making me feel better, so why should I have anything for the rest of the day? When you're ill, you don't normally feel like eating or doing anything. The problem is, I find it triggers me and I end up starving myself, even after I feel better.
Hopefully I'll be feeling better and this bug will have disappeared by tomorrow morning. I've got to admit, I don't feel worse than yesterday but I still have the weakness and tiredness. I think it was just some 24 hour thing. Y'anno, the whole OMGOMG SO MUCH PAIN IT'LL NEVER END, and then it's gone just like that. It's quite weird to be honest and very annoying.
It's natural to be ill at some stage anyway although I think it's just anxiety that's coming out as physical symptoms. It can't be food poisoning as my diet consists of the same foods over and over again and I'm a vegetarian so I don't eat meat or fish... I also don't have some kind of chronic long-term disease so yeah. Although my hair's falling out again and my motor tics are as bad as ever. Good old anxiety, eh?
Hope you guys are okay, and I'm sorry it's been a while! I'm considering posting some of my poems I've written on here. Although I haven't actually decided yet ;)
Take care <3
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