I've gotten back into Neopets. I have no idea how it happened but I'm back on it again. If any of you play Neopets then feel free to add me, my username is swallowaspider. Great name, huh? It's definitely something to pass the time with and I've met some great people over the last couple of weeks.
Both good and bad things have happened. Bad things? I've resorted to drowning my sorrows through binge drinking on vodka which has been going on for a good few weeks. I feel horribly guilty about it but it's not a secret anymore. My carers know, as do my mental health team. I think it's slowly starting to become a problem but I know of no other way to cope right now. I'm hoping it's not a long-term solution. I just need a bit extra right now.
But to rule out the bad thing, we have a good thing that's happened! I went to an interview to see if I could get a volunteer position at an animal shelter (e.g. cats, dogs, small animals etc). I got through! I'm starting in a couple of weeks. That should be a good distraction and I'm hoping, as are my carers, that everything will kind of level out when I have my time filled up with something other than sitting and ruminating. We'll see how it goes. It means that after I start volunteering you might get some pretty upbeat posts rather than posts of my 'not coping well' scenarios. Please, don't follow in my footsteps right now.