No picture today.. I just seriously need to vent. My little brother has gone right off the deep end. Not only has he got into some serious shit that has involved him being arrested and bailed, he's also gone and taken an overdose. It's okay, my mother and her boyfriend are taking him up to the hospital but seriously; I don't know what to do. It hasn't even sunk in yet I don't think. I'm still pretty bubbly and all over the place (as in overly hyper/manic kind of thing) and I think I'm still partly in shock.. 

Let's face it. Me and my little brother had very traumatic childhoods in regards to abuse, and I thought it would mean we never went down the same path as our abuser. The truth is, he's getting involved with crime, I'm binge-drinking.. it's like we've gone into totally polar opposite reactions. He's extrovert and effecting a load of other people, whereas I'm introvert and only inflict violence on myself, and very rarely other people. It's odd. I don't understand it. We haven't spoken for months and he wants to speak to me. I don't know. I really don't. I don't know what my reaction is going to be when I speak to him. What he's done is extremely serious and prison is going to be very likely. He's 16 so probably juvie? I don't really know how these things work if I'm honest. He doesn't seem to feel guilty at all! And now he's gone and overdosed! I thought I'd make an entry seeing as I needed desperately to rant.. 

Rant over.

I hope you're all well. I'll keep you updated on the situation. :)

P.S. The skin graft has taken well! I've just got to keep it in my collar+cuff for a few weeks so it doesn't swell so much. I also started my new job on Wednesday! In the grand scheme of things this isn't important.. but I'll talk more about it in my next post when this crisis is over. :)

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