I don't like crowds. I get all panicky and self-conscious. It's like eating in public. Logically speaking, when you're out in public, no one's going to be staring at you. They're going to be concentrating on their own meal and chatting to whatever company they have. That's not how you look at it though. While you're eating, people are staring at you all the way through your meal. With every mouthful you eat there's a pair of eyes on you.
I prefer my own company. I live with five other people. I don't mind their company at all. If anything, when I'm low, they can keep me distracted. Sometimes it does get a bit crowded if some of them are going out raving for the night and their friends are over getting ready. It makes me feel slightly uncomfortable having so many people around, especially if I hardly know them.
For me, crowds just induce panic. I like knowing the people I'm with and knowing that they won't be judgemental at all. That's why I don't really socialise or leave the house. Not only does it make my anxiety shoot through the roof, but it also makes me feel on edge.
Crowds + me = Big No-No.
That probably wasn't the most helpful post for other people to read but hey-ho. (:
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